MIstakes and Regrets

I've been going through some really tough times in my life.
I've recently found out that people aren't really who they say they are. And no matter how much you love someone, they'll never believe a word you say. Actually, I've always known that. I think everyone knows that. But we all push it to the back of our minds to make ourselves feel better.
No matter how much you love someone, or how close you are...something is bound to go wrong, of course. Nothing is perfect. And if it is perfect, something isn't right.
I've been blamed, accused, scoffed at, laughed at, ignored for far too many times and for far too long.
I've suffered through a lot of things in my life, but recent events may take the hall of fame.
You can't make someone believe the truth if they don't want to believe.
You can't help someone who is never going to get better if they don't want to get better.
Of course there are going to be obstacles along the way, big or small, but if you really want to reach whatever it is you're grabbing at you really have to take a big leap. Just jump in. Go for it. And don't stop until you get there.
No matter how battered and bruised and cut up you get along the way, if it's something you really truly want, just fucking do it.
I've tried really hard to be an honest and true person but I guess that isn't good enough, and I'm not worth the smallest grain of salt.
It hurts, yeah. But I've got things to do so, of course, I'll just bury it.
But nothing will ever be the same.