Yes. I had my first experience with the love drug. I'm not afraid to admit it.
I'm sort of upset at myself for taking it, with all of the medical problems that can arise from it, but needless to say...it was the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced.
I'm not big on drugs or alcohol, but I admit that I would try anything once.
After all, how many times do you get to do something out of the ordinary in your lifetime?
You only live once, right?
It's kind of scary though. From experiencing the extreme euphoria that I was in...It's plain to see how easy it is to get addicted to Ecstasy.
You experience a happiness and a point of self gratification like no other.
I would absolutely love to experience that all over again, but I'm far too afraid of getting hooked.
One time was plenty enough for me.
But I am so glad that I had the opportunity.
I found an inner peace with myself and now I'm so content and satisfied.
I used to be horrified at the thought of what my impression on other people were and I was always striving to make everyone else around me satisfied before I could let myself relax.
Now..It really doesn't matter. I'm not completely happy but I'm not in a pit of depression either.
I wish I could cough up a deeper explanation..but I guess it's something that you have to experience yourself to fully understand.
I'm just...satisfied. :)
The Mechanics of A Machine
- the human robot
- A Metallic Heart, Covered In Oozy Flesh
- I'm a strange bean with a troubled mind.
4 comments:
WOW IS THIS TRUE? I GIVE YOU PROPS FOR PUTTING IT OUT LIKE THAT IF ITS. I FEEL U WHEN U SAID YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE THATS MY MODEL IN LIFE TOO. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE BE SO SCARED TO DO SOMETHING THEN REGRET IN THE LONG RUN FOR NOT TRYING IT.
I think you're brave for putting this online with everyone who can read it. I wouldn't put it up if I did it, but since I know you, I'm not surprised that you did. =]
Yeah, it's true. I was a little afraid to post it, but I really don't care. I'm not a drug addict or a dirty person for trying something so intense and I'm not afraid to share my experiences with the rest of the world. And if someone thinks that I am a dirty person they can just go eat razorblades. :)
Sound like you go another thing off your list of things to do. Not in a bad way :) At least you can say you have experienced it. Its pretty cool that you shared this.:D
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